Thursday, April 24, 2008

I'm Not Dead...

As obvious and slightly morbid as this phrase may seem, it's slowly becoming my newest daily mantra.

One thing I've realized about becoming a 30-something is that you start to think about all the things in life that you've always wanted to do and hadn't gotten around to doing so. It's a reality that we all face at some point in our lives as we grow older and take on more responsibilities. Just yesterday I sat with a group of my closest girlfriends and had a long discussion about what we are versus what we thought we would be at this age. We all agreed that there was so much that we wanted to do that we either abandoned out of fear or just never got around to doing. In the middle of one the girls "I wish I would have" statements I interrupted her and blurted out, "But you're not dead! I'm not dead!" Sure we are getting older and the starving artist thing is sort of played out like a CD player but there's still hope!

I know that this may be a little easier for me to say being a single woman, with no children and a descent income, but trust me when I tell you I have my responsibilities (i.e. education debt, shoe habit debt, etc.), fears (i.e. job loss, eviction, growing into an old maid, etc.) and hang-ups (too numerous to list) like everyone else. Still, everyone has to be able to identify one person, place or thing that they've always wanted to see, try, do, or visit (you figure out what or who goes with what or whom) and admit that there's no good reason why they have not gone down that road except for the fact that they just haven't; plain and simple.

A big one for me was that I've wanted to take Frenchlessons for years. Last week I thought to myself, "so why aren't you in a French class doe-doe head?" Soooooo....two days ago I started a new French class and it was tres magnifique! I have a looooooooooong way to go but I am proud of the fact that I didn't break out into the "woe is me" song and dance and gave it the ole college try. Now hopefully this baby step will get me closer to my big grown up steps into my dream life...more on that later... :-)

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